Any lengths?
I'm in Hawaii and there's a meeting on the schedule that starts at 7PM. I want to go to it, but I'm encountering obstacles in gaining transportation. It seems to be within walking distance, about 3-4 miles, but there are no safe routes to walk; there's a major highway with no pedestrian access that's most of the route. A taxi has to come from about 20-30 minutes away to get me and then it'll cost me about $40 round-trip. There's a VIP limo service with the hotel, but it costs even more. I called in local Intergroup and spoke with a pleasant fellow (Hey, Jim!) who was wanting to be helpful but didn't know of any solutions.
So... here's the gist of all this: I want to go to a meeting. Oh, my head is pretty OK - I'm certainly not thinking of drinking. My serenity took a bit of a hit with this, but I talked with someone in recovery (Jim) and I prayed and I listened and I'm now sitting here writing this. What has come to me is that I don't NEED a meeting right now; I WANT a meeting because I like going to them, especially when I travel. For me to bulldoze my way through this would be exerting my will. If I NEEDED a meeting, I have no doubt whatever that God would have me covered. In this case, I feel the message is that this meeting is not for me. One perspective I have here is that, what with the early closing of businesses and such in this area due to it being off-season, no one will be at this meeting which doesn't even meeting in a building, but out in a park - and it just rained heavily and may rain more. What would it do to my serenity to bulldoze my way to getting there only to find no one showed up?
So, here I sit, now with a smile on my face and feeling OK 'cause I just shared with you.
So... here's the gist of all this: I want to go to a meeting. Oh, my head is pretty OK - I'm certainly not thinking of drinking. My serenity took a bit of a hit with this, but I talked with someone in recovery (Jim) and I prayed and I listened and I'm now sitting here writing this. What has come to me is that I don't NEED a meeting right now; I WANT a meeting because I like going to them, especially when I travel. For me to bulldoze my way through this would be exerting my will. If I NEEDED a meeting, I have no doubt whatever that God would have me covered. In this case, I feel the message is that this meeting is not for me. One perspective I have here is that, what with the early closing of businesses and such in this area due to it being off-season, no one will be at this meeting which doesn't even meeting in a building, but out in a park - and it just rained heavily and may rain more. What would it do to my serenity to bulldoze my way to getting there only to find no one showed up?
So, here I sit, now with a smile on my face and feeling OK 'cause I just shared with you.
