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I'm not really sure what tonight's meeting was about, but it started with someone sharing about relapsing after 10 years. I related to the share, for this person's recovery "came easy" the first time. Once I stopped being "around" AA and actually not only joined, but participated, got a sponsor and worked the steps, my recovery came easily for me. When I look back on it, I don't know exactly when the obsession was lifted, but it was early on in my recovery. I get how this person experienced that, but then slacked off on meetings and all the other subsequent things that prelude a relapse. Hell, I had started slacking off considerably in the past year, but have picked up the rate and am still praying, calling people, sponsoring, being sponsored, service work and am about to jump into meditation (got a full weekend class next weekend). Hearing someone's experience in this and relating so closely to their initial recovery was a good thing for me. While coming back to meetings and talking to people is coming easily to this person, the thinking of drinking is now ever present. Often the first recovery is a gift; subsequent ones can take a lot of work...