raanch

Last night someone shared about how she was (her words) "fat and ugly" when she was growing up and how she always wanted to be noticed by the boys. I thought on that a bit and really related to what she shared. I have always wanted to be noticed by anyone and was always so self-conscious and down on myself. Granted, I certainly want to be noticed by the boys, but the girls noticing me is a nice thing, too! As I thought about this and listened to her share, it occurred to me that now I AM being noticed. There's nothing really physically different about me from about three years ago. My hair is longer and I (finally) have a full beard. Oh, and my eyes aren't bloodshot! And I don't reek of alcohol...

What has changed dramatically is how I feel about myself now. I think that has the greatest effect on how others see me. On whether others see me at all...