At tonight's Big Book study, part of the text we read was the 9th Step Promises. I've read these aloud at meetings many times, heard them many more, even read them in the book a few. BUT, I've rarely read them while someone else was reading them aloud. Tonight, something smacked me upside the head in them, "Self-seeking will slip away."
It did. It's back. I shared what I've shared here in the meeting and that I will talk with my sponsor about it.
Later tonight, I was pondering what my purpose was in a new friendship that's growing. What am I supposed to do? I was at a nightclub, watching my friend play drums. His band was performing for Valentine's Day and their theme was (wait for it....) love. As I was standing there wondering what I should and shouldn't do, it came to me (again... I've felt/heard it before...). Love. That's all I have to do with this friend, love him. Perhaps that's all I have to do with each and every person in my life. After all, in doing some major work on myself, I found I want to (and have at times) be the possibility of love for every person I encounter.
I've slipped a little away from that. Now I am aware of it and can do something about it. If acceptance is the key, awareness is the flashlight on the keyring.
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